Saturday, November 13, 2010


I thought I had lost this and it went *POOF*! Whadya know. Guess I can start blogging again. LMAO

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Stripped: Coming Out of the Mental Health Closet

What a weird weekend! lol I have gone from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows. See, that’s what happens when you are Bi-Polar. Yes………I have mental health issues and I am now ready to talk about them and stand up and say: I AM NOT ASHAMED OF WHO I AM!

Over the weekend someone that I used to trust, gave my “big secret” away and told all of Twitter and the world I was Bi-Polar. She said this was the reason I was a hurtful person and that I was a, quote “loon”. It is this type of ignorance that has brought me here today to talk about being Bi-Polar/Manic and dealing with life and that for any one out there with the same issues, you too can stand proud.

So let’s start first with why I am Bi-Polar and have manic episodes. I will very shortly and quickly say…….. it is a by product of being abused both physically and sexually by my own Father from the first memory I have until I was about 12 or 13. There are patches I don’t remember because my brain keeps it locked away to protect me. In return, I have a chemical imbalance that makes be go from very high highs of happiness, to very low lows of depression. Depression does not make you mean. For someone to say that I hurt people because of my manic episodes (high to low) is pure ignorance. If I am mean to someone, I take responsibility for that. However, if I come out with the painful truth about someone who has hurt me and how they have lied, then that is just fact. Simple as that.

People who are Bi-Polar/Manic do not hurt others on purpose. In fact, many artist and people of creativity are Manic. They are very passionate about life and love and standing up for the truth and fighting for what is right. But yes, without medication and proper therapy it can be harmful. However, I have been on medication and seeing both and shrink and therapist for years now. Do I have issues? Of course I do. Do my meds need adjusted? Of course they do. This is something I will live with the rest of my life and deal with it on a daily basis.

For people who say ignorant things like……..we all know you are Bi-Polar Sean so that is why you are acting this way. Or, you are acting out, time for you to adjust your meds…… just as cruel as saying……you are such a little faggot Sean or Sean you are such a drama queen. It is just as hurtful and just as damaging and just as mean as being homophobic. I would say it’s mentalphobic. (Think I just made up a new word there. LOL)

Millions of people deal with some time of depression or mental health issue. I am here to tell you there is NOTHING wrong with you and you are not alone. It is time we stopped hiding in the closet of shame and allowing people to make ignorant statements and make fun of people with mental health issues.

Along with those of us that are strong and face our issues……..there are MANY who do not. They are usually the ones that are the finger pointers and most angry with us. Because they do not know how to deal with their pain or loss or depression. They just simply lash out all the time. Refusing to admit they have an issue and get help. They are the ones I hope read this too and find strength to get the help they need.

A very wise young man of 17 once said to me, 'Sean having a mental health issue is no different then being diabetic. Just like if a diabetic didn’t take their medication they would get very ill…… people with mental health issues need that medication too to make it so they are not ill.' THIS, from a 17 year old boy. A 17 year old wise, SO WISE, beyond his years.

I allowed people to make me feel shame and embarrassed to the point that I was so hurt, I left Twitter. Something I found to be very fun and had a lot of people I loved talking too. But the hate was too much for me, so closed my account and I left. Maybe I will find courage to come back, maybe it is best not to. I have not made that decision yet. The point is, I allowed others to hurt me. I allowed them by giving them my power. A lesson to be learned and I hope others will know that no one can take your power away or hurt you unless you give them permission to. Sadly, I let them and gave in because I could not take the pain or embarrassment.

But I have received so many emails of love and support……….I realized, I have nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed by. Like being gay, this is a part of who I am and NO ONE has the right to make fun of me or others with mental health issues. Just as I would stand to the death to fight someone over gay rights……….I need to take that same stance and fight and not allow people to say ignorant things or treat me and others, like there is something wrong with us. THERE IS NOT! Just like a homophobe……a mentalphobe is the one with the issue…….not us.

So I stand there today. Not ashamed, not embarrassed and say to the world………yes, I am Bi-Polar, yes I have mental health issues and no…….there is not a thing wrong with me. I take medication and I am proud of who I am and so should everyone! I take back my power from those who chose to out me without my permission. I take back my power from those that made fun of me and said I was a loon. I take back my power to stand up for myself and say FUCK YOU to some people for being so ignorant and hateful to those of us in this world dealing daily with these issues. We work very hard to control daily and to remember to take our medication, to stay level and to keep our heads held high………for there is nothing wrong with us. It is YOU out there with the problem of not being more understanding and accepting.

To all my brothers and sisters that deal with depression or any type of Mental Health issue………join me today…….stand up and fight. Take back your power and when someone says something ignorant, call them out. Just like you would stand up for anyone gay or of any minority, stand up and fight. FIGHT for you and those who live and deal with the same issues. We are all in this together and its time people started to pay a little respect and take care with their words of hate.

May those that I have hurt forgive me, but forgive me for being an asshole. Not for anything to do with my mental health. There is a HUGE difference and may you also have more compassion and a better understanding now of what your words can do. For they are just as sharp as any knife that would hurt someone of any minority or that of the LGBTQ community.

Let love find its way in to everyone’s heart and I pray that people will take my blog here today as it is intended……..not to be preachy but to educate and hopefully help others.

Peace & Love,
Sean Patrick

"In the end the love you take is equal to the love you make" ~ Lennon/McCartney


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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

An Open Letter To Gene Simmons

The following letter is my reply to what Gene Simmons of Kiss has to say in this radio interview:

About Adam Lambert and his career after American Idol. This interview was given on 3/17/10.

On Monday 22nd March 2010


Dear Mr. Simmons, I heard your comments the other day on DaveFM about how you felt Adam Lambert should stay in the closet and not "tell people about his sexual preference and if he likes doing farm animals or not".

WOW... where to begin.

A- It's a Sexual Orientation... not preference. You prefer Pizza Hut over Papa Johns or McDonald's over Burger King. You do not prefer to have sex with one gender over the other. It is not a choice. Do you CHOOSE to be straight? No, I didn't think so. So please try and educate yourself.

B- Comparing Homosexuality and Bestiality (Sex with a farm animal) is about as pointless as me saying... you having sex with a porn star is the same as having sex with a pig. Yeah, I'm sure Shannon (your partner)would appreciate that.

C- Let's look at those gay men you mentioned that all stayed in the closet.......Freddie Mercury: Died of AIDS. George Michael: Stayed in the closet for years, in and out of drug rehab and still has many issues. Elton John: Stayed in the closet for years, in and out of drug rehab and only finally has a real life after hiding for YEARS. So... that's the kind of life you want for this young man? WOW... you aren't just an asshole... you are down right mean and evil.

But what it really comes down to... Adam has talent. Talent like you have never seen before. Talent that you never had and never will have. Adam Lambert is talent personified and it eats away at you and so you have to lower yourself to come out with crap like what you said on this radio station. This doesn't make you cool or a legend Gene... it makes you a washed up, old, has been, now Reality TV piece of junk that is so jealous... you have to resort to snippets putting down a man that has more talent, more drive and more integrity then you ever had or ever will have.

I don't feel sorry for you Mr. Simmons... I just simply pity you now.

Sean Patrick

Saturday, February 27, 2010


Isabel with Adam

Isabel is at the Glamily Reunion and looks like she made two new friends... Hi Monte and Tommy!!!

More pics will be added as the night goes on!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010



HELP DONATE BY GOING TO PAYPAL: and enter in the email of: anything from $1 dollar to $1oo dollars is very appreciated.

Read Isabel's Story:

Well Adam Fans and Glamily.... WE DID IT! Isabel and her daughter Joy are on their way to see Adam in Concert at Fantasy Springs! Still waiting to do the BIG Celebration because we could still use a few more donations for wheelchair/oxygen retal, meals, taxi and little concert extras... PLUS A MEET AND GREET WITH ADAM LAMBERT!

HELP DONATE BY GOING TO PAYPAL: and enter in the email of: anything from $1 dollar to $1oo dollars is very appreciated.

Peace, Love & Adam Always,


Thursday, February 4, 2010

Adam Lambert, Meet Your Greatest Fan FROM The Greatest Generation...


Meet Isabel…

I had the opportunity to have a Q&A with Isabel and her daughter Joy. The following is the transcript of her replies to my questions and with her consent to share with all of you.

Hello Isabel,

As you know my name is Sean. I have tweeted with your daughter Joy to have this Q&A set up. Thank you for taking the time to answer some questions for me today. You are a true Adam Lambert Fan Favorite and many of us (if not all) absolutely love you.

[Isabel:] Well thank you, I am truly overwhelmed and flabbergasted by the response to my birthday video to Adam. Thank you all so much!

So a few questions that I have:

• What year where you born and where? I'm guessing 1920, yes?

[Isabel:] Yes, I was born in October of 1920, in Norway, Europe. Our family came over to the United States on a ship when I was 9 yrs. old. I've visited there about 15-20 yrs. ago, but have always lived here in Wisconsin. I still do have close relatives there.

• For 89 years young you have the spirit of a teen, how do you stay so young and vibrant?

[Isabel:] I guess by being optimistic and looking on the bright side of life. I keep myself busy with cooking and baking, cleaning my own apartment, doing my own shopping, and I try to keep my health my first priority. This, along with playing cards 3-4 times per week, listening to music, and having a good sense of humor...I love a good joke or laugh! Dirty or not! LOL All of this keeps my mind sharp.

• You’ve seen it all from Elvis, to the Beatles, to Lennon, to Freddie Mercury/Queen, to Michael Jackson, to well you name it, you’ve seen them all…. and yet you said Adam had the best voice? That’s pretty amazing. So what is it about Adam’s voice and presence that beats out all of the rest for you?

[Isabel:] His vocal range is sooo great, he can hold notes for a very long time, and does it so beautifully, and with such control. He's filled with charisma. When he performs on stage he's just fantastic and electrifying, and you can't keep your eyes off him! I just adore him!

• Other then Adam, what are some of your other fun hobbies to do?

[Isabel:] I love music, so I play my keyboard by ear. Music has been a huge part of our family for years. My mother had a beautiful soprano voice. 'Max Steiner', from Hollywood, wanted to take her there when she was younger to make her a star, around 1898-1900; not exactly sure on the year. But, she was married to my father with one child at the time, and he didn't want her to go. Other than my keyboard, I love to sing, but with asthma, I can't really hit or hold the notes like I used to. As I said earlier, I also love to bake, cook, play cards, and go out to lunch with my friends.

• In 89 years you’ve seen Civil Rights come along way but Gay/Human Rights still not moving as fast. You however didn’t even mention a thing in your video about Adam being gay. This was very moving. We (The Fans) loved that it did not seem to be an issue with you as someone from the “Greatest Generation”. Would you mind talking a little about that now and how you feel about Prop 8 and Gay Marriage?

[Isabel:] 'There but for the grace of God go I '...a person that happens to be gay, could be in any family, and I think what's in their hearts is more important than people judging them because of their sexuality. We're all God's children. There are many good people that just happen to be gay.

[Isabel:] I would've probably been against 'gay marriage rights' years ago, but through the years I've learned to accept and respect other people's way of life...they have rights just like the rest of us; so, I feel that it should be their decision if they want to marry...we shouldn't try to stop them.

• You are a beautiful, opened minded woman. What is your advice to other people out there that have issues/problems with Adam?

[Isabel:] JUST LISTEN TO HIS VOICE!!...Especially the song he sang when he was in Brigadoon... made me cry, my daughter too; it was soooo beautiful. He can bring so much beautiful music to the world if they'd only give him a chance. His sexuality doesn't have anything to do with how talented he is, or what type of person he is. His personal life is his own; he doesn't judge us, why should we judge him? He wants people to be happy, get along, and enjoy his music...just like I do!

• What is the secret to life as you see it?

[Isabel:] Be yourself, and love your fellow man for who they are. Show your love and affection to people. There is a higher being for all of us to believe in; be spiritual, and have respect for yourself, AND respect and compassion for others.

• At 89 you seem to have lived a very full and wonderful life. If you could have just one wish or do one thing, what would it be?

[Isabel:] As I said in my video, I would love to see Adam before I pass. Just to have a chance to see “my boy” on stage live and hear his beautiful voice live. That would be a true blessing.

• If there is anything else you would like to add.... please do so.

[Isabel:] Thank you so very much for trying to get this out to Adam and others. I hope the people that see my video, my daughter’s comments with it, and this article, have a kinder understanding and view of Adam and his feelings.

[Isabel:] If they haven't yet given Adam a chance, I hope this opens their minds to respect Adam, and enjoy his amazing talent.

Isabel, thank you for taking the time to answer my questions and allow the fans of Adam Lambert to get to know you a little better… it has truly been my honor.

So what did I learn from this beautiful woman of 89 from this, the “Greatest Generation”? That she has more wisdom, more integrity, more insight, more knowledge and more acceptance in her soul and life then at anyone from the “Silent Generation (1925–1942)”, the peace-loving “Baby Boomers (1943–1960)”, more then my own “X Generation (1961–1981)” and can teach a whole new world to the “Y/ Millennium Generation (1982–2001)”.

As for the upcoming “Generation Z (2001–)” they are the hope and if any of their parents are reading this… please save this and read it to them one day when then can understand that long before there time, there was a generation of people called the “The Greatest Generation”… why? Because Isabel is living proof of that statement… she is simply and truly… the greatest.


As of this afternoon, Thursday 2/4/10; Mtn Woman from AO has two perfect tickets and seats to the Palm Springs Fantasy Concert of Adam Lambert. Gifted with love from Mtn Woman from AO she is giving these tickets to Isabel and Joy. That’s right Isabel… you are going to see “YOUR BOY ADAM!”


Isabel and her daughter Joy have the concert tickets, now we need to help them get to Palm Springs. PLEASE HELP DONATE BY GOING TO PAYPAL: and enter in the email of: and donate $1 or $100 anything you can give will help. We need to get two plane tickets, hotel and then for taxis and extras at the concert. LETS MAKE THIS THE BEST CONCERT OF A LIFE TIME FOR ISABEL!!!! Thank you to Mtn, Kel, Rod, pflagmom and everyone for the set up help with PayPal.

Love is a beautiful thing. Isabel restored my faith in hope and humanity and Mtn Woman from AO restored my faith in the kindness and love of a stranger.

You get back what you give away…
Tell a stranger that they're beautiful
So all you feel is love, love
All you feel is love, love
~Adam Lambert -Aftermath

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

This blog is dedicated to Isabel, Joy and Mtn Woman -
Livet er Vakker! (Norwegian) Life is Beautiful!


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Broken Open…

Part I of II

On Monday 1st February 2010, @sweetsexysean said:

I know many of you don’t understand my anger and hurt toward Adam Lambert. But try for one moment to walk in my shoes and think about my life... my husbands life. To just take a moment and THINK!

SO MANY people already think being gay is a CHOICE and so many have worked SO HARD to change that way of thinking. So when Adam said about converting from gay to straight.... "I don't believe in converting, that's just so silly but I do think that it's possible someday." THAT statement was VERY, VERY damaging.

YES, Adam is his own man. He only speaks for himself but Adam IS a gay man and so therefore many people look at him as the example AND the rule and some looked up to him. At least I did. If Adam didn’t ever want the label of “Gay”, he never should have said... “YES, I AM GAY.” He could have said he was Bi or Queer.

So before you get pissed off at me.......walk a mile in my shoes and understand why my heart just broke into a million pieces.

Peace & Love,

Broken Open Part II of II

On Tuesday 2nd February 2010, @sweetsexysean said:

Adam, I owe you an apology. A BIG APOLOGY! SO here it goes... It is my mia culpa for making you my gay superhero. You never asked to be, you never wanted to be and it was not fair of me to put you there. You are an amazing singer and song writer and that's it. You just happen to be gay and we have that in common and I made it more then what it is/was.

I always tell you UBU but when you were you.... I slapped you in the face and said NO! I realized, I wanted you to be the man, I wanted you to be. It took a great friend, @AdamsMikeStand to help me realize that and all my TRUE friends standing by me, holding my hand and saying.....we love you Sean, no matter what. Even though I was lashing out at "their idol" THEY still stood by me and loved me and didn't ask me to change. THAT is true friendship. That is pure of heart, which is love. I’m sorry I didn’t give you the same love they gave me.

I learned a very great lesson in all of this.

1. Don't love a person for what you want them to be, but for whom they are, unconditionally.

2. You are human Adam and you owe me NOTHING. You owe your fans nothing but Music. That's it. Just your music.

3. You are an OPEN BOOK and while I may look at some of the pages and think, WHAT? I accept every beautiful page in your Book of Life and thank you for letting us see just a small part of it. It was VERY unfair of me to try and rip apart any page in your book and I am truly sorry and humbly ask for your forgiveness.

To all those that follow me, some of you are still with me and I love you and thank you for your love and support. Some of you left and I understand why. To any Adam Lambert Fan that gave me their two cents, I understand. You were protecting the man and artist you love.

As I have said in my past blogs before.... It's a Journey - Not a Destination and Adam is taking us on an amazing ride. Last night, my Journey took a wrong turn due to my OWN fault but I am back on track and with time..... I hope many of you will learn to love and trust me again and know that I am Adam's biggest male fan/supporter and his MUSIC comes first.....always has and always will.

Peace, Love and Adam Always,

PS: Sorry for being such a DQ.

D'oh LOL

Monday, February 1, 2010

You Have A New Follower On Twitter... Imagine That!

If you will a man, me, just a simple guy that in real world is actually quite shy.

If you will a man, me, coming online to a whole new world and finding that people think I’m interesting. Why, I’m still not sure.

Me on Twitter getting all these people following me over a letter I wrote to Adam Lambert that to this day, I still do not know if he has ever read.

Me allowing my thoughts to come pouring out in a blog and for people to accept them, like them, even love them and want more.

Me, being scare, overwhelmed not knowing who to trust, what to do and telling people… “No, I won’t follow you on Twitter. I don’t know you!”

How many people I have hurt by that simple, stupid act.

Me listening to my hero, my original hero John Lennon and his words and thinking how I always say… “Adam is what Lennon was talking about when he wrote… Imagine.”

The light finally clicked on for me today and I just Followed 270 of you. Only 80 of you being followed before and now ALL of you being followed because I now hope and imagine I have made someone, maybe just one person happy. But even just one, is better then anyone I rejected out of fear before and I am so sorry and hope you will all forgive me... because each of your are important, beautiful people and VERY important to me.


Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

Saturday, January 30, 2010

The Power of Adam...

Oh the excitement of being online with friends, new friends and complete strangers that became friends… but all of us fans of Adam Lambert waiting to find out… did we do it? Did our votes finally count and was Adam #1 on VH1’s Top20 Countdown!

First; The Live Twitter, Play by Play of Waiting To See If Adam Was #1:

(Selected Tweets that show the excitement and amazement of online friends and connections. All Tweets in Red are mine.)

(My Call Out To Fellow Fans)
@adamlambert FANS: Anyone else watching EARLY EST feed of Top 20? I Cant sleep! I am SO Xing my fingers our votes got him to #1! PLEASE!!!!

AwesomeGal4evr @sweetsexysean he will be #1 I have faith!

Ala4adam @sweetsexysean I am getting nervous!

Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean Coming now. I just turned it on!

TABOO_T @sweetsexysean I'm here too! Exhausted but can't sleep til I find out!! Glad to know someone else is too!!

Justin8602 @sweetsexysean Haven't watched the VH1 countdown since the 90's, cant resist though now that Adam is on it! Fingers crossed #1!!!

criminallyvulgr @sweetsexysean I dont know how much longer i can stay awake, but i'm scared of missing something!

number8gurl @sweetsexysean awww how sweet. The love is strong and intense. (@adamlambert)

rhett203 @sweetsexysean Just tuned in!! Watchin with ya!

rodca @sweetsexysean @Azure_Moore woke up, can't sleep watchimng your play by play lol

So there we all were! My closest friends, my Twitter friends and my new friends… all waiting to see. Had we done it? HAD we got Adam’s WWFM to number one on the count down? We all Tweeted with excited and baited breath.

From Me:
I love that we are all up so late/early to find out the Top20. DAMN......we do love @adamlambert . He HAS TO BE #1...HAS TO!

@AwesomeGal4evr OMG would be PERFECT end to his BDAY! Thats why we tweeted it all week. OMG COME ON VH1!!!!!!!!!!

@TABOO_T HI TT OK..........not #7..............LOOKING GOOD OMG!!!!!!!!!

rhett203 @sweetsexysean God! I can't stand the suspense!!

AwesomeGal4evr @sweetsexysean this is freaking exciting!!!!!!!!!!

@Justin8602 I HEAR YA! Same HERE! OMG I am DYING! I cant remember wanting a vid to be #1 so bad. I think back in 1989 with NKOTB. GOOD GOD!!

AwesomeGal4evr @sweetsexysean sooo if MJ song comes on pretty quick..adam has it..

@AwesomeGal4evr OMG MJ DIDnT MAKE IT……MJ WAS 21

@Azure_Moore @AwesomeGal4evr Its going to be down between fucking Kris Allen and our Adam..............AGAIN!!!!!!!!! GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!

Justin8602 @sweetsexysean LOL, NKOTB! (still have step by step album on my ipod btw) It's looking really good right now for Adam to be #1!!!!

****VH1 has Kris Allen at #4 on Countdown********

@Azure_Moore @AwesomeGal4evr @momduck YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG

Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rhett203 @sweetsexysean WOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO - a good sign!

@adamlambert FANS..............JUST 2 to go........DID WE DO IT??????

****VH1 has Daughty at #3 on Countdown********

@criminallyvulgr @AwesomeGal4evr @Azure_Moore JUST 1 MORE AND WE WILL KNOW!!!!!! OMG

Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean This is so awesome!!

And then…………

Azure_Moore @Knyghtlyn Gaga at number 2! Is @adamlambert number one? @sweetsexysean Hold me up!!!!!!

Justin8602 @sweetsexysean If GAGA is #2, then @adamlambert is #1 !!!! FUCKING A!!!!

AwesomeGal4evr @sweetsexysean holyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

@ADAMLAMBERT FANS WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #1

@rodca @AwesomeGal4evr @Azure_Moore WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ADAM IS #1 OMG OMG OMG DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!



@Knyghtlyn @AwesomeGal4evr @TABOO_T @rhett203 @Ala4adam @Azure_Moore @rodca @islasands WE DID IT! WE DID IT! WE DID IT!!!! OMFG WE DID IT!!!

@Azure_Moore OMG..........IT WORKED.........ALL THE TWEETS.......ALL THE RTs..............I AM ACTUALLY IN TEARS!!!!!!!!!!! OMG WE DID IT!!!

TABOO_T @sweetsexysean YES!!!! HAPPY B-DAY ADAM!!!!!! #1 ON THE TOP!!

Ala4adam @sweetsexysean My heart is beating out of my chest!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean Seriously...I cant breathe!!!!!

rodca @Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean Celebration!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

islasands @sweetsexysean Sweet jeezuz! Please tell Jake to gently kiss and suck those everlovin Adam voting fingers of yrs!

Knyghtlyn @rodca @Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean Beautiful!!!! Time to celebrate!

rodca @Azure_Moore @sweetsexysean @Knyghtlyn The real idol reins!!!!

Cerulean777 @sweetsexysean OMFG!!!!!! We did it, Sean!!!!! Our baby is # 1 !!!!!! Squeeeee!!!!!!!! :D Yes!! & for His birthday too!!! Fucking awesome!!!

rhett203 @sweetsexysean @Knyghtlyn @AwesomeGal4evr @TABOO_T @Ala4adam @Azure_Moore @rodca @islasands I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! HELL YEA, WE DID IT!!!

AwesomeGal4evr @sweetsexysean KNEW he was #1..had the vibe YESSSSSSS

Justin8602 So glad I voted and re-voted countless times this week for WWFM!!! @sweetsexysean Thank You for posting the daily reminders to vote!

@adamlambert IN ONE YEAR FROM AI TO #1 ON VH1 TOP20! YOU DID IT.......YOU MADE IT! WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!

And there you go…. Fans of all ages coming together and we all turned back into 13 year old girls and boys screaming like Elvis was on Ed Sullivan. We had accomplished our goal, we had got Adam to #1! How did this all happen? Well… that’s the power of Adam Lambert.

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Breaking Free…

At some point in our lives we all want to break free. Free as a child to just go out and play and not have to do chores. Free as a teen to get our drivers license and break free to drive around with our friends. Free to turn 18 and finally be an adult. Free to be 21 and not be carded. Free to fall in love, free to have sex, free to come out, free, free, free!

As we then become mature, upstanding, tax paying adults… we yearn to break free from the daily grind. Free from our spouse asking if you did what THEY wanted. To break free for just 30 minutes of free time alone from screaming children or a bitching boss or co-workers. Oh, how we long to break free.

And Along Came Adam…

Suddenly, we feel free. We are breaking free. We find the time. We MAKE the time and all because of Adam Lambert. Adam has empowered all of us to break free in so many ways and yet, the more free we become because of him… the less freedom he now has and now Adam longs to break free. Maybe just for that 30 minutes we all once wished for; Adam has now given us.

Oh, The Price Of Fame…

Is it too great, too much to ask for some privacy? We all say no but yet we all know if we saw Adam in a store or a restaurant, it would take every fiber of our very being not to go up to him… even very politely. But yet, Adam still loves all of it. Still longs to be with all of us and still says, don’t leave me alone. He may long to break free but he takes it all in true stride and remains the beautiful, humble man that he is. That sweet young man running down the street with a smile on his face and breaking free to go sing in Hollywood for what would change his entire life.

We are now breaking free with Adam, we all take the time, we all get up and “strut”, we all glam it up and it’s all because of Adam. We still at times, along with Adam, may long to break free. But it is the moments we are free that we now cherish with Adam and love him more for it.

I hope you will enjoy this music video I made, that goes along with my blog. For the BEST QUALITY Viewing... please watch it on Thanks!

Peace, Love & Adam Always,


It’s a Journey – Not a Destination

21 January 2009

Life is a Journey, not a destination… Adam is on the Journey of his life right now and we are lucky enough to be a part of it. I feel SO lucky to have found him and to be a part of all of this.

Growing up I was not able to accept myself. Not able to accept that I am gay. I will one day open up more about that, but am not ready to go there yet. However, I will simply say that as a teen I was in complete denial of the fact that I was gay and never allowed myself to have a “crush” on any “Male Star”. I now find through Adam, I am able to have that experience and know what it is like to be on this journey of being a “fan”. I wait in excitement for the next showing of Adam. For any little Tweet to come from him. To hope he is happy, and worry that he is losing too much weight, but hope he is eating well. MY GOD… I have turned into his beautiful Jewish Mother! When did that happen? LOL! I guess the more we fall in love with Adam the more we care about his well-being.

As I look at all of you… these beautiful women adoring Adam, I see many of you as my friends and my sisters and I feel in my heart that so many of you are gay men trapped in women’s bodies and Adam triggered that in you. That is YOUR Journey. To allow the gay man in all of you to come out and be celebrated – don’t be afraid to hide it. Let that PRIDE show and I don’t care if you are 15 or 105… Adam brings out that teen in all of us again and we are on the Journey with him! We have no destination, we are just going to celebrate it everyday. We ARE going to “Strut” and enjoy every moment, cry every tear of joy for Adam or sorrow when we see his pain and together… this Journey will forever bond us and we will be grateful to Adam Lambert for taking us along for the ride.

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

PS: This blog is dedicated to Azure, Jen, Julie and Kelly. Thank you for helping me and believing in me. I love you.

Dear Rickey...

On Sunday 24th January 2010, @sweetsexysean said:

@rickey I come in peace. LOL I know many are upset by what you said about @adamlambert . But I'm not and here is why.......

First of all, my name is Sean. I know many people are on the attack right now at you and what you said about and showed of @adamlambert. I hope you will give me the chance to just talk to you. I don't plan on attacking you. I understand why you posted the pictures in HD of Adam and said what you did.

Sometimes our own pain and jealously can come out in many ways. Maybe you are jealous of Adam or maybe you just wanted some attention? I don’t know. Only you can answer that. But what I do know… Adam Lambert is beautiful and a very handsome man. His beauty comes from the inside and shows through on the outside. Adam teaches about Love and Light… he shows that in all he does. What you have done is just the opposite. You have shown the hate and darkness of a human. I believe you are better then that. At least I hope you are.

Yes, Adam has some marks on his face from when he was a teen. Who doesn’t? LOL I know I do. We all have scars... some show on the outside, some on the inside. Those who have them on the inside sometimes are very insecure people that have to point out other peoples visible scars. Is that what you were trying to accomplish today... to make yourself feel better by trying to hurt Adam? I promise, it did not work. Adam is MUCH stronger then that and has more self-esteem then you can imagine.

I’m sorry you felt you had to do this. I’m sorry you are a person in such pain and have such insecurities. I wish you the best though and hope that you know, I don’t hate you, I’m not even mad at you. I just feel sorry for you.

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

Some Fans Need To Chill The Fuck Out!!!

On Saturday 23rd January 2010, @sweetsexysean said:

To Certain @adamlambert FANS: I'm about to give you a very hard pill to swallow. Ready? CHILL THE FUCK OUT!!!

Before you all flip out… these are MY opinions and MINE ONLY. But please do read on. Do you not get that Adam is human? He has feeling, he gets pissed off. He may express that in a tweet. It’s not “humor”. So many of you are clueless with your “ohhh that’s just Adam being Adam.” How do you know? You don’t know Adam! And sorry but I don’t think so in my opinion; I think he was pissed off at rumors and bullshit tweets about him and a woman being together… A WOMAN! Give me a fucking break!

Let’s define “FAN”:

Root word Latin fanaticus inspired by a deity, frenzied, from fanum temple. Fanatic: marked by excessive enthusiasm and often intense uncritical devotion.

fanatic noun
— fa•nat•i•cal•ly  adverb
— fa•nat•i•cal•ness noun

Adam loves people who genuinely love and care for him. Fans I believe are less and less appealing. Sure, we all say we are “FANS” but when we really break it down.... do we want to be put in that cluster of fuck ups? NOT ME? Take for example today…….

Radio Station Personality and DJ, Larry Flick, from Sirius Radio OutQ made a statement about fans hurting a singer’s career because they were too over the top about him and overzealous (I paraphrase). Mr. Flick was NOT, I repeat NOT talking about Adam Lambert or his fans but then what transpired... well, ironically proved Mr. Flick right. Mr. Flick struck a nerve with some Lambert fans because he was bombarded with tweets of rudeness and child like stupidity that well, was a complete embarrassment to Adam Lambert to the point where Adam had to tweet Mr. Flick and APOLOGIZE for his OWN FANS. How pathetic and sad is that. Mr. Flick has been one of Adam’s supporters from day one, playing his music when no one else would. HOW DARE YOU BITE HIS HAND!!!!

If you honestly don’t think at that point Adam was not happy, then you’re an idiot and you need a wake up call. Guess what… this is it.

WAKE UP!!! Adam is a human being. He is a man with feelings, he gets upset, and he gets embarrassed. Sure he stays positive but he’s not Jesus Christ for fucks sake… I’d think not since he’s Jewish! LMAO (Yes, I'm being ironic. I know Christ was born Jewish! LOL)

Now here is some honey to slide that pill down with… Adam does love all his “Fans” (cringe I hate that word) But he has said time and time again he would not be where he is with out all of you… all of us. All I ask is that before you FLIP OUT and tweet that nasty tweet… take a deep breath… count to 10 and say… is this what Adam would really want me to do? I can pretty much tell you….the answer is… NO.

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

Adam On Oprah...

On Tuesday 19th January 2010, @sweetsexysean said:

I know many don't understand..... I also know there are many who do understand but....... as a man, who is gay..... I found myself at first like any other fan, just happy and excited to see Adam on Oprah. SO EXCITED! LOL I was counting down the minutes with all of you. LOL

As the show started and my Husband, Jake, came home. We sat on the couch together and watched. We listened as Adam talked so eloquently and self-aware as he always does. So funny with humor and his own pure sweet and kind heart.

Jake was holding my hand and then lifted it up and kissed it during a commercial. I laughed and said, what’s that for? He said, “because you look so innocent and sweet with that huge smile on your face, waiting for the commercials to be over with and Adam to be back on.” LOL As Adam came back on and started to sing WWFM………..something came over me. Tears started to stream down my face, I felt such pride as I saw this man who has never lied, never hidden the fact of who he is, never tried to say, ‘oh it was just a joke’ or some other bullshit and so many before him have done. He was honest and open and he told the world, yes “I’m Gay” and so what? Deal with it! And there he was………on Oprah………OPRAH!!!!!!!!! The woman is a fucking Icon to THE WORLD and she was adoring him. SINGING ALONG with Adam word for word.

Oprah is right, Adam IS paving the way. I know he didn’t choose it. I know he may not have wanted it. But he is doing it and I thank him and love him for it even more………..if that’s possible. LOL

I have no doubt……….Adam is the key. He is the one. He will change and open minds and hearts. I know that is a lot to put on one man but the beauty of it………Adam doesn’t have to do anything extra or special………..Adam just has to be Adam and the rest just falls into place.

What an amazing day. What a beautiful day. What an amazing and beautiful man Adam Lambert is from the inside out.

My Heart Is Full.

Peace, Love & Adam Always,

Please Help Us HOMO'S!!!

(Passed On To Me By @bluedog)

On her radio show, Dr Laura Schlesinger said that, as an observant Orthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22, and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The following response is an open letter to Dr. Laura, penned by a US resident, which was posted on the Internet. It's funny, as well as informative:

Dear Dr. Laura:

Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination... End of debate. Its in the Bible - end of argument!

I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some other elements of God's Laws and how best to follow them.

1. Leviticus 25:44 states that I may possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighbouring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

2. I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her?

3. I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness - Lev.15: 19-24. The problem is how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense.

4. When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord - Lev.1:9. The problem is, my neighbours. They claim the odour is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them?

5. I have a neighbour who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2. Clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself, or should I ask the police to do it?

6. A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an abomination - Lev. 11:10, it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this? Are there 'degrees' of abomination?

7. Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wriggle room here?

8. Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev. 19:27. How should they die?

9. I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

10. My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev.19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? Lev.24:10-16. Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair, like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)

I know you have studied these things extensively and thus enjoy considerable expertise in such matters, so I am confident you can help.

Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging.

Your adoring fan,
James M. Kauffman, Ed.D. Professor Emeritus,
Dept. Of Curriculum, Instruction, and Special Education
University of Virginia

Dear Adam...

Friday 15th January 2010, @sweetsexysean said:

@adamlambert FINALLY, a way to write you and not have it in just 140 words or less. LOL Now I dont know what to say. HAha OK, seriously........first, I doubt you will ever even see this. I mean, you have a million tweets come into you from millions of girls every day. I'm just one dude that's out in a sea of many trying to say thank you and you don't owe me anything.

I didn't know you from AI. I actually didn't know you until the AMA's. Yep. And when I first saw you I was like WTF!!!!! LOL But then my husband Jake said, why are you freaking out and I realized, it was because you were able to express yourself so freely, with no apologies. That scared the hell out of me because after being in the closet for so long and being told I was a freak, I didn’t belong, the world hates see a man stand up there and say, this is who I am and fuck you if you don't like it. Was the most fucking amazing thing I had ever seen, Adam. I realized my fear was actually adoration and the next day my husband bought your CD for me. LOL He’s a good man.

Since then it’s been complete craziness for you I know and I have watched you handle yourself with such grace and confidence and true self awareness. At times I have been in awe of you and looking at your parents, thinking……..why couldn’t I have had parents like that!! LOL They obviously did an amazing job raising you. But today I saw the pain in your WWFM video and it hurt and I’m sorry for your pain and hurt.

In closing, yes I’m wrapping it up LOL, I would just like to thank you for you being you. In my past tweets to you I’d always just say UBU Adam but, you always have been and I know you always will be and for that, I thank you. I thank you for the man that you are and that man that you are becoming. And most of all for sharing yourself and your talent with the world. You fill up my heart along with so many others. What a beautiful gift that is. Thank you.

Respectfully and With Peace & Love,
Sean Patrick

PS: I hope you have a wonderful and very Happy Birthday on the 29th.